my dictionary

hate [heyt] - verb
to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest ~ i hate that jav has to be in the army and i'll only get to see him on weekends.

miss [mis] - verb
to regret the absence or loss of (boyfriend who had to go) ~ I miss jav oh-so-dreadfully.

desire [di-zahyr] –verb or noun
1. to wish or long for (boyfriend who cannot be around because he is in tekong); crave; want.
2. to express a wish to obtain; ask for; request ~ I desire javier's heavenly comforting presense.
3. a craving, for something that brings enjoyment and happiness (whose absence is accompanied by melancholy and sadness which results in obsessive blogging about subject).

miserable [miz-er-uh-buh] -adjective
1. wretchedly unhappy or uncomfortable ~ i am so miserable without him.
2. accompanied by great discomfort or distress ~ a miserable wait of 2 years.
3. dreadfully inadequate ~ a miserable amount of talk-time allowed from javier.

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